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Saturday, 15 August 2009

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    Tug Of War
    By Carly Rae Jepsen
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    Sincerity

    Ever since I moved to the big city, I've had this hole aching and gnawing inside my stomach. It could be that I have severe health problems...or it could also be something else unrelated to physicality.
    I have people to hang out with. I can find a movie mate, someone to go tanning with, or take dance lessons with pretty much anytime I want. But sadly, I don't feel like I'm connecting with any of these people in a more special way than just casual friends. Not even with my group of supposedly best girlfriends. Today, I've come to realized that I know my best friend so much less than I thought I did. And from the look of it, she's keeping a whole world of her life to herself. Like many of my so-called friends here...I realize that I know so little about them.
    Or is it that there is all there is to them? And I've dug all I could? I seriously doubt this.
    I'm not sure if it's something that I'm doing wrong...have I mistreated any of these people? Or is it that people are just not too big on sincerity and true friendships here? Is it the city I live in? Or is it just the people I've encountered...because I've encountered many kinds. I put myself out there, trying to find the good. Trying to find someone relate-able to. It's depressing, but I can honestly say it's been such awhile since I've had a real friend by my side.
    I'm not sure what to do anymore. Or how to deal with all this. Ignore it and stay close to my family and declare strangers untrustworthy? No, that would be the cowardly thing to do.
    But what is the brave thing to do? What more CAN I do?
    I don't know. And it's tiring me out, weighting me down, sitting on my spirits for such a long time now.

Friday, 07 August 2009

  • inspiration...or not.

    World-wide poverty, starvation, and lack of clean water sources are, as heartbreaking as it is, very common around the world.

    So a human can be in lack of many things; money, food, water, and shelter. That would make said person struggle to survive, right?

    What if someone lacks inspiration, hope, genuine love, warmth, comfort, or the will to respect anyone in their life, because no one deserves said respect?

    Would this lack of emotional means be the same as lacking the physical means?

Sunday, 12 July 2009

  • Oh Canada.

    I just came back from vacation. I visited Alberta, a province near mine. We went camping in Banff, which was beautiful like Yosemite in California, only much better! I also traveled to Vancouver Island. Victoria city is always the stunning and exciting place to be; however, I also went whale watching in Sooke, a small town near Victoria. The people there are incredibly sweet!

    I've got to admit, Canada is the most beautiful country. I'm proud to call it my home.

Tuesday, 03 March 2009

  • some kind of break-through.

    being a girl of fifteen and a child of immigrants, i've dealt with many head-aching, heart-breaking situations that no one else around me could related to before. one of them would be difficulties of adapting into a new environment, a completely new country even. and you know what? as depressed and ostracized as i felt...i must admit, on the upside of it, i'm much luckier than many people, even the ones i envied.

    the problems i've had before when we first moved to vancouver are rather childish and immature, i must admit. but they weren't unreasonable feelings, because it is perfectly normal for anyone to feel out of place and homesick when they first moved to a new environment.

    looking back, i feel foolish for thinking vancouver isn't a great place because i felt lonely. that's basically taking my problems and blaming it as somebody else's fault. it has nothing to do with vancouver itself and its practices; it was just normal, expectable behaviors for someone new in town who was not used to the new places, new people, new ways of living. i felt like this needed to be said because it feels like a progress in my maturing process.

    now that i've adjusted much more than the year before...i feel like giving thanks. i'm not sure to who or what, but i just feel like i should put that out there. it actually is a good thing to have the chance to live in different places in the world, especially places that visitors flock to.

    again, i make this point because i'm a child of immigrants: i think it's wonderful that my family and i were given a chance by canada to come here and live, under much better conditions than we were in. so i'm quite grateful towards canada. i'm finally understanding what it means to be someone of mixed cultures: i'm proud of my vietnamese ethnicity although i'm also growing up among canadian culture. and it's a special thing, trust me :)

Sunday, 28 September 2008

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    Sex And The City: Music From the Original Motion Picture
    By Original Soundtrack
    It's Amazing - Jem
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    mediocre yet blissfully happy.

    what a strange combination eh?
    but happiness' definition comes in a wide range and variation.
    today, a friend spoke to me about his intakes on happiness and money. and he seems to have a firm idea that money would result in happiness in most cases...which surprises and stuns me a great deal. i've always assumed he knew better...and apparently, i have somehow given him terrible advices as well the last time we spoke. i am quite disappointed in myself. but that is too long of a story to get into.

    homework is so overwhelming. i have yet to come to an understanding of why we are so pressured as high schoolers...it's all just bad timing.

    piano compositions are quite lovely and soothing to listen to if you're pulling all-nighters for homework like me, just a small tip :).

    later sunshineeee.




    edit:
    spend some time and reflect. are the things you're worrying about really that big of a deal? K.I.S.S. Keep It Simple, Silly.

    a little something i learned in math :)

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